Life keeps going

Well, again another long stretch since my last post. How can I ever hope to consider myself a writer if I don't write every day? I know that I am afraid to face the pain that comes out with writing but this is getting ridiculous! It has been over four years... Time to let go. Of course I know what is holding me back. Forgiveness. I just don't know how to do that. I don't know how to forgive the one person that I loved so very much and who took my love for granted, who was willing to toss it away for a skanky piece of ass. And speaking of skanks, I still am angry which is most likely apparent, I wouldn't even know how to say the word forgive and her name in the same sentance. I have been contemplating writing her a letter, but honestly don't know if that is really the route that I want to go, I hesitate to open a connection between us because I do not want her to feel that I would want to hear back from her. So I am just trying to get my mind wrapped around the process of forgiving and letting go. It is not easy but I will get there.

Now onto other things... Just a few random events in my life:

I have a new iPad which I love and as I am writing this in bed on my new iPad I am hoping this is the answer to more frequent posts. Although they will most likely be shorter cause iPad typing isn't as easy as keyboard typing.

I am working on expanding my daycare license... On a deadline so really need to get my butt in gear with that one.

My dad had a knee relacement surgery, he is doing well.

My nephew had a surgery to remove some masses from his ear, he is doing well.

Britt is preparing for her LSAT's and is only a few weeks away from completing her junior year at Concordia College.

Danielle is graduating from high school in about six weeks which has me extremely stressed out.

Anthony just had his last choir concert this week and he is excited to tour other schools with the jazz choir. He is also looking forward to another fun summer at Trollwood which starts up as soon as school lets out.

Caitlyn is excited about the new swing set I just purchased and is already hanging upside down on the bars like a monkey, she also just recently taught herself how to do a one-handed cartwheel. She also has her last dance performance today.

I have a zillion things to do today, the first of which is going to be to make myself a cup of coffee, so time to get moving but excited to be able to blog from bed, I could get used to this.