I am waiting for John to get out of the shower so that we can go out and yes celebrate. The meeting went very well and thankfully I don't feel too overwhelmed. I have been hired on as a graphic designer/consultant but they thankfully have their own in house programer who will handle all of the technical stuff that intimidates the hell out of me. There is a looming deadline which has everyone stressed so I have my work cut out for me. I still don't want to say what it is, keeping you in suspense is half the fun! ROFL The web site goes live October 1st and I will announce it here for you all to see. I am not even going to think about it tonight, I am just going to go out with John and have a wonderful night.

Tomorrow morning I am taking the kids to a Storybook Breakfast. It is hosted by the high school drama class. They all dress up as fairy tale characters and the kids get to eat pancakes with them, play games, win prizes. We have gone every year since Brittany was in preschool. It is so much fun and the kids are really looking forward to it. Tomorrow night I drive limo's all night and Sunday I am going to get stuff done around the house and hopefully catch up on all of my adoptions. I am so behind so if you have ordered one recently and haven't received it please be patient, I really have a lot going on. ANNA K. - Email is on the way for you. I am so sorry I haven't responded yet. I will do your graphics for you early next week, I promise! :-) Hope you all have a great weekend!! ~::~HUGZ~::~

I am still trying to recover from my hectic day yesterday and I am trying to pretend that I am not nervous about my meeting this afternoon. The weird thing is that I'm not nervous that I won't get the account but rather I'm nervous that I will get the account and what if I'm not good enough or have enough skill/talent to do it right? Damn, I am so neurotic sometimes! lol

Tonight John and I have a date. We are going out to eat although I have no idea where. Someplace where there hopefully won't be a bunch of kids. For some reason when we go out without our kids and we are looking forward to a nice, quiet meal; we end up surrounded by little kids who are running and screaming around the restaurant. I am so picky about my childrens manners in restaurants that I have little patience with people who just smile sheepishly as their children get completely out of hand. I'm sorry it is not cute and it is not appreciated.

There have been times when I have wished that instead of a smoking/non-smoking section there was a children/non-children section. Don't get me wrong, my children aren't perfect and at home they are free to express themselves all they want (which they do VERY well!) but in public I expect them to be on their best behavior. So anyway, after dinner we are going to meet my sister and Jeremy to see "The Banger Sisters". My sisters pick, not mine. Hopefully it is good, I'll let you know.

I guess I should get moving and start getting ready to go. Before I head out, here is my Friday Five....

1. Would you say that you're good at keeping in touch with people?
No, I always feel guilty about it but I am horrible at keeping in touch. Guilt just never seems to motivate me enough to do anything about it.

2. Which communication method do you usually prefer/use: e-mail, telephone, snail mail, blog comments, or meeting in person? Why?
Ummmm..... I would have to say email. It is easy, I don't have to buy stamps, and I can keep in touch while still wearing my pajamas with no makeup on.

3. Do you have an instant messenger program? How many? Why/why not? How often do you use it?
I have a few although the only one I use is AIM and I really don't even use that very often. I'm not sure why, I guess mostly cause I never seem to catch people online when I actually have time to chat.

4. Do most of your close friends live nearby or far away?
There aren't many people I would consider to be close friends, but those that I do have are far away.

5. Are you an "out of sight, out of mind" person, or do you believe that "distance makes the heart grow fonder"?
I never forget my friends/family, I'm just not always the greatest at letting them know I am thinking of them. I hope that they don't need me to tell them that I love them, I hope that they just know.

Oh, I almost forgot, don't forget to sign up for the 2002 Blog Ornament Exchange! :-)

This is my second time trying to make this post. The first time I was almost done when my computer froze up before I could save it. I hate when that happens now I have to try to remember what I was saying and it just never seems to sound as good the second time around! lol

I know that I was posting about my meeting tomorrow. I have a meeting set up with the account executive for the website that I mentioned on Tuesday. I am a little nervous and a little excited. I don't have the account yet but he did like most of my ideas and tomorrow we will be able to discuss it more to see where it is going. I am nervous because after a few conversations I still don't know if he just wants to buy my graphics/layout or if he wants me to maintain the site. I don't know if I have the skills needed to keep up with what sounds like, will be a huge, long term project. I'll keep you posted....

Today is our first Brownie meeting. I am excited to have a smaller troop this year. I think we will be able to do more activities/trips with only 8 girls because there will be less chaos as compared to the 16 girls we had last year. Brittany is running for president for the school student council. She is running against a friend of hers. I offered to make cookies to bribe the kids with but she wouldn't hear of it. ROFL I then offered to make posters on the computer with a big picture of her face on them and plastering them all over the school. You should have seen her face, it was so funny! She is so serious sometimes. She was relieved to realize I was joking. hehe

I have to meet with Brittany's REACH (her school's gifted/talented program) teacher tonight, kinda a back-to-school night and then after that I have a limo run. Somedays there is just too much going on, I'm never sure if I'm coming or going. Tomorrow night John and I have a night with no kids. I hate to be so excited about it.....but I am! lol...I love my kids but I am so ready for a break! :-) My mom is nice enough to take them over night so that we can enjoy some alone time. I can't wait.

I took Brittany to the orthodontist today and got my nails done. Not a very exciting day, but hey, they can't all be exciting, and with the way things usually go for me, boring is good! lol I did get a frantic call from my mom this afternoon. Her and Bill had met with a local radio executive to discuss their advertising contract and he had mentioned he had liked the website I did for them. He wanted me to call him regarding a site that needs to be done ASAP because the project is behind schedule. I can't talk about it much because it is all confidential but keep your fingers crossed that I get his account. :-) I talked to him this afternoon and I really think that it will be a fun project to work on so tonight I will put together some ideas and hopefully he likes them.

Not much else going on, I'm waiting for candles from Missy, I have a few things I need to work on to get ready for our first Brownie meeting on Thursday and I as usual have a ton of laundry to do. Oh and I started my period which means I don't have to think about being pregnant for awhile. I still have mixed feelings about it, logically I know that right now isn't the best time to have another baby but sometimes when I see how big my three are getting I want another little one to hold and kiss and love. I put away the pregancy test that I didn't use, maybe I'll take it out next year when things are more settled in our new little family. When the times does come, John and I already have names picked out, it felt kinda silly talking about it but it was fun and sweet and a way for us to commit to each other that someday soon we want to have a baby together, just not right now.

Anthony and I are headed out the door but I just wanted to stop in and say hi. Today is "Monday Morning Moms" at the girls school, something we both enjoy. Anthony gets to play with other kids his age and I get to visit with other mom's as we do projects for the teachers. Before I head out for the morning, I just wanted to say Happy Birthday to you! I hope you have a wonderful day today! ~hugs~

Graphic by MLL

My poor blog is so neglected, it gives me an evil look every time I log onto my computer, which lately hasn't been very often. There is so much going on here; I don't even know where to start. Most of it is just every day stuff, going to PTO meetings, Back-to-School night, Brittany's class had a car wash to raise funds for our local fire department the week of September 11th, Danielle was given a project to work on called "all about me" which is 50 pages long, Anthony is just Anthony driving me nuts. John and I are doing well, when we actually have time to spend together that is. I drove limo's all weekend and we are looking forward to spending the day together today. The girls spent the night with my sister and the morning was peaceful as John, Anthony and I cuddled up in our bed with a box of dry cereal and mugs of hot coffee.

So here's the thing, there is a reason why I haven't blogged. Amidst all of the normal everyday chaos of my life, I have had something on my mind that I wasn't ready to share because I didn't know for sure what if anything was happening and I didn't know for sure how I felt about it. Do you remember me posting recently about my major PMS mood swing? Well guess what? The PMS was there but it wasn't followed by my period. I hate to admit it but I have never really been very good at keeping track of my cycle. I don't write it down and as my life is always so hectic I completely forget when my last one was and just depend on my body to tell me when it is on its way. So with the major mood swings I assumed it was time to start and when it didn't I just assumed that I had estimated my dates wrong.

Another week passed and still no monthly visitor, suddenly I was feeling queasy and waking up in the middle of the night to go pee which I never ever do. I just knew I was pregnant and at the same time a little voice was telling me that I was only imagining the symptoms because although I am not on birth control pills John and I are always VERY careful because we obviously already have our hands full with three children. So for the next week I worried about being pregnant, we have discussed it and agreed that we are not ready to have a baby right now and really don't know if we want to have more children. To John, Anthony is his son and neither of us has felt the need to have more.

So I have silently worried about what would we do, how could we afford it, etc. Finally I couldn't take the stress anymore and I had John buy me a home pregnancy test. I took it right away and guess what? It was negative!! So what was my first reaction? I burst into tears! Suddenly I WANTED to be pregnant, I wanted another baby, I wanted to experience having a baby that was part of both John and myself. I couldn't explain my tears to John who thought I would be happy to not be pregnant. I still don't know how I feel about all of this and on top of all of that I still have NOT had my period. I'm sure that I will start soon, I mean those tests are hardly ever wrong. I have a second test hidden under the sink, which I will use if I haven't started in a week or two. I mean I couldn't have estimated my period that far off could I? Sheesh. I swear, once I start I am going to write it down every single damn month, this is way too stressful! lol

Hope you all are having a wonderful weekend and on Monday I hope to be able to sit down and visit all of my daily reads which have been sadly neglected lately. Thank you all for continuing to visit me even though I haven't been the greatest of company!! Have a great day! *S*